The Last Day of School

Its been a while, there is a lot for me to say.
We all had good times until the last day.
I wish that day wouldn’t end just yet.
Those days come rarely, they are always the best.
Whether I’m dueling in the U.
Or Acting like a complete fool.
It just for jokes and few laughs.
Having fun feel way better than doing math.
We walk to Wal-Mart and just play around in the store.
Acting on our own, we need nothing more.
We are there for one another, that is hard to find.
The world around show us that people aren’t so kind.
From High School we have experience bad things.
Now its seem different, what else could we bring.
Life is like a journey, who knows what lie ahead.
Walking along the path, an idea comes to my head.
Outside in the field, I see all my friends.
Standing outside waiting for me to come out.
I shouldn’t give up, Its too early for this to end.
I want to smile openly and to not have any doubts.
All that time I felt alone and yet.
I never knew that this would happen next.
I was closing to losing my sanity.
I want to be good person and keep my humanity.
I like to be able to touch a kitty or
Be sneaky and quiet like the squirrel.
Anything is possible, There’s good in the world.
It makes feel better that I have go through a lot
I am still here,
I’m Glad
And in the words of Old Man Spock.
“ Live Long and Prosper”

A Place I'll Never Forget

In south of Alabama is a town called New Brockton.
A boy from the north gets to the house starts walking.
He explores the area, from street to street.
It amazing how he never gives up despite the heat.
He stays with his loving grandmother.
Caring for her, they help out one another.
He walk to the gas station for some snacks.
See someone riding an ATV in the back.
On Sunday, there is church to serve God
The boy is there to listen while others just nod.
Giving his ears to listen to the word.
After service, there is a feast that they serve.
All that food to fill him up.
Feeling thirsty, He take some water in a cup.
Even though he has his grandmother, he feels alone.
Remembering his friends back home.
He misses them, but he has to do something first.
For him, this the place to get rid of the curse.
He feel as this place has never changed.
During the summer it is dangerous when it rains.
Lightning flashes through the sky while thunder goes Boom.
It feels as the earth shaking along with me in the room.
The boy isn’t afraid but he worries sometimes.
About the people in their trucks passing him by.
He never stay long but he always enjoys coming down.
His Grandmother lets him know, there is no reason to frown.
Waving good-bye to New Brockton, back on the road.
He doesn’t forget but still has a long way to go.

A new day has come. :)

When we wake up in the morning, it’s a new day.
The people around me, do I want to push them away?
Living in the shadows, sitting still and really quiet.
Not wanting to be found. The people begin to riot.
It is May, Now what will come of us.
I have patience while others have had enough.
Break things, hurt people, the list goes on.
In the end, you will realize what you did was wrong.
You turn to family, They want nothing to do with you.
I felt alone, but my friends were the ones that came through.
I am grateful that I met them and we have good times.
I want to be able carry myself high as the sunrise.
To be with those who care, spending time with me.
The past likes to sneak up and deceive.
Who knows what people I may run in to
And what they may have up their sleeve.
My experiences have showed me to be careful.
To hold those responsible who have done bad.
Keep a grudge with them in really sad.
Don’t dwell.
It will wear off like a spell.
My faith is strong like a dragon’s flame.
Knowing that no human being is above me,
That we as humans are all the same.
We are sometimes stubborn about certain things.
9/11, the untimely recession, and who else
Know what time will bring.
Feeling like a ghost, that is what I felt like as a boy.
Getting know myself and others, I felt an inner joy.
Doing your best, having fun, winning doesn’t matter.
When you caught up in yourself,
All those victories, they just get scattered.
At home, I spent my time alone with no one to care.
At school, I had found my way out, even though
Life is Unfair.
Run squirrel run up the tree.
Close behind chasing you is the kitty.
At the end of the day, the sun has gone down.
Like trees we have to stay green
Or else we die sadly and turn brown.

Time reminds me of the Feeling I once Had

Can I care about someone.
Someone who was once very fun.
Her laughter and kind smile.
Allows to me stay for a while.
Had feelings for her, He fell for her.
In the end, it doesn’t matter, Now he feels worse.
He had made her feel uncomfortable around him.
He could not begin to think about what he just did.
He loved her so much but yet life took a different path.
Instead of a relationship, He wanted her to feel his wrath.
It leaves him with one part that’s him and the other that’s not.
He wonders half of the time, did she care for like or was she the fox.
She told him that he should move on, yet he didn’t understand why.
Because of the problem he had, she would feel sad and cry.
He tries to explain himself, but she doesn’t listen.
He is like the bad fish she caught,
She just lets it go and keeps fishing.
What make him upset it that it was his 1st time.
Falling in love and then losing what was so kind.
Did she me a lot to him?
Yes
But now a new hope brings him forward.
He feel his personality is lower.
Leaving everything else behind and bad things.
He has his faith to see what life has to bring.
Not everything works the way its supposed to be.
But once can she see what I mean.
he want to be there for her, then and now.
But he can only be her friend, he feels down.
Can his words reach her heart?
Who knows, He won’t rip it apart.
The light from above shine brightly.
I need to stop thinking of myself so badly.
He has friends who accepts his presence , so gladly
As he looks up into the tree.
He sees a squirrel and little kitty.
Getting along is one thing people need to work on.
To find that true relationship, be yourself or run along.

Summer

Summer is almost here.
Getting to the middle of the year
The sun is out shining brightly.
Flowers come in looking nicely.
Looking out the window, seeing the birds.
The laughter of friends can also be heard.
Running through the fields with my dog.
In the barn, you can the hear the hogs.
Squealing and running, wanting something to eat.
Just like me when I want pork and beans.
New York is hot and so is the country.
But it isn’t as bad as the lightning hitting a tree.
God blesses us with good weather each day.
With people passing on, I will keep my faith.
It is sad to see them gone, but they will always be there.
You can’t be mad at yourself and say its unfair.
They are there in your heart, just waiting.
Hold on to them, even while you are skating.
Living on a island would be fun.
But it isn’t as fun being alone with no one.
Life is project you work on, but not alone.
Like being with friends while eating smores.
It takes time but things will get better.
Hanging by the pool it will much wetter.
Splash some water, cool down a bit.
Don’t get carried away, it just a switch.
Take time out for yourself.
Have fun with friends and nothing else.

I am Here.. Yet this is how I feel :(

In the morning I wake up to a new day.
My mouth feels like I just ate some hay.
What is going on with me,
Am I going crazy.
Is everyone my enemy?
Can I trust myself?
No
It is just me and no one else.
What else is there for me here.
Everyday people look at me weird.
That same look that often looms.
In my mind or in my room.
The devil laughs in my face.
Treating me like a bunch of waste.
Will I be missed if I left this world.
If so, please untangle this swirl.
I want to say I sorry to this friend
Not being myself made this friendship end.
Such evil in me exist.
Pray for me if you insist.
I don’t expect no one to come to help.
Hiding in the corner feeling like a lost whelp.
Smiling is something that is hard for me to do.
I want to make you see that I do care about you.
Let me just say my peace,
Before you know it, I am labeled : DECEASED.
In my mind you haven’t left
But this more than just a bet.
My friends is more important than playing games.
That you help me before makes you more than just the same.
No more will I burden you with my problems or personalities.
Hurting you makes me lose my sense of mortality.
I am human, and yet too long I didn’t see.
Blinded by what seemed to be and wasn’t.
You might hate and despise.
The one thing I would not do to you is lie.
If I have fallen that low.
The line has been drawn, I dare not go.
Forgiveness is something I ask for, not expect.
Because of my problem and its effects.
After this I don’t know what’s next.
I hope you will see that hurting you
Is something that I will regret.
If you hate me I understand
What else can I do, I am just a man.
I was once a boy who didn't think.
But time after time the load began to stink.
Tired of carrying it wherever I may walk.
Like crabs in those arctic waters, I am tired of getting caught.
My past is one thing but it should not affect who I care about.
Choose to live on or be in a corner and pout.
I worry for the safety of others because I care.
It not just your world, It's mine too so why can't we share?

"That Ominous Feeling"

You start alone and unsure on what to do.
Before you walk out the door think things through.
What had happened that day.
I was left behind with nothing to say.
Walking to a place I past so many times.
A strange place I’m in, I wonder what I’ll find.
Running around in a circle, blaming yourself.
Sometimes it isn’t your fault and it could be something else.
Looking into mirror and jump back at what I see.
Confused all of sudden, Is that me?
The dull blades that pierce the heart.
It feels as time itself has just ripped apart.
Everything is a mess, nowhere to go.
The arrow is near and so is the bow.
To make everything straight and neat.
To stand up feeling humble and not weep.
Remember on the cross, he died for us.
For that to happen, that was no luck.
Families need each other for support and love .
That tragedies that affect us each day.
The best thing would be to hug and not shove.
Pushing people that matter away.
The time draws closer and days go faster.
Getting attune with yourself, realizing you are the master.
You can only be you.
Coping someone makes you the fool.
I was alone in dark, until I made to the light.
Without my friends in mind, I would have lost the fight.
Now is my turn to help you.
We’ll get to it together as friends too.
No one should feel sad or upset.
I know what pain is but now I forget.
I keep that behind me and remember what’s in front.
Life is unpredictable, oh watch out for the bumps.
For they can cause you to crash.
If you take it out on others, then you’re an ass.
I am thankful for the people I met here.
Your words of encouragement have reached my ears.
Never change when you are already feel free.
This is just one of many roads of destiny.

Before I Die.... My Very 1st poem

Before I depart from here,There's a lot of things to say.
God is near so I really need to pray.
I'm Thankful for all the good times I've shared,
Though I leave loved ones behind, but still I care.
My Life has been a journey, both good and bad
Even though I think about it, I still feel sad.
Piece of time flash before my eyes.
When look back i think of what could have been mine.
In the end when the time comes there are no mistakes.
All up until now comes the last breath i take.
One last look at the peaceful view.
I turn my head to look up at you.
On the bed I try to see, but my vision is blurry.
The sign of death telling me to hurry.
I can hear u still and I reach for your face.
All I say i love you and my heart begin to race.
Goodbye everyone and everything that I hold dear.
It is disappointing that i didn't make to next year

Amnesia Epidemic :(

Who Am I ?
What is my name what is my purpose.
How did I get here.
Did I walk to get to this point in my life.
I lost a part of myself .
Forgot about who I am and everyone else.
Why am I Unhappy?
Do you care for me
If that true then why I am feeling so blue.
People come and go in my life.
The wars continue on with so much strife.
Make this feeling go away.
I tried everything but it just stays.
Am I endangered to everyone around me.
What should I should I do?
My heart beats like a small drum.
I may be weird in the head unlike some.
Back Then I was Lonely in a house.
Still and quiet just like a mouse.
Tears fill my eyes and roll down my eyes.
I want to hear the truth, no more lies.
Looking at my deck, wanting to duel
Remembering all my friends
I know my anger will not come to rule.
After all they have done to help me out.
I know I am strong, there’s no need pout.
Do we let people control us or do we have choice.
Its better to stand your ground and have a voice.
Of course there were those time where you were the problem.
Knowing that it isn’t true, why do you look so solemn?
I play cards with my friends, it’s a good game.
You look at like I’m retarded, we are all the same.
God sent us here to live and be happy.
Why should one comment make you feel crappy.
Feeling the wind blow, I take a deep breath.
Looking at someone who felt the touch of death.
Missing that person so much.
Was it all just bad luck.
Keeping faith and unyielding devotion.
When something bad happen, people encourage the commotion.
Take time out to think things through.
There are people out in your life that care about you.

Questions for the Average Person

Hey is there something going on?
One minute you’re there and the next you’re gone.
Is there anyone there to see if I ok.
Its seem like you were interested for one day.
If that’s true then what am I to you.
Am I your friend because I am no fool.
You say something but eyes say a lot more.
I can look at you all day and not get sore.
Do you like me as I am?
I like you the way you are.
Be yourself and don’t change for nobody.
I will follow my path and not be a phony.
Times are changing and I am too.
Seeing people dying on the news
What they did do?
It sad for the families who have go through this.
Just like the grizzly losing his fish.
Help is needed and people doing the good.
Doing that to put a smile on the kids faces.
I know I would.
Ignoring people who care is just plain dumb.
Feeling lonely, all over people feel numb.
To Love, to be able to reach that person.
It hits you much faster than my racing heart.
Having Honey with tea, smooth and sweet.
And something good to eat.
Everyone should be entitled to that.
If not, then how about a cute cat.

Raining Days, Lonely Ghost

One raining day I met this ghost.
Worried about the person he cares for the most.
I walk through him feeling his loss.
Some things aren’t worth it , no matter what the cost.
Stuck here because of his unfinished business.
When died on the inside, he never got to eat those red fishes.
Feeling like there is no hope left to live.
Society makes him feel like a unwanted kid.
Living each day on the street in a box.
Can’t trust the people out there, they’re just bunch of crocs.
He wants to know what is peace?
It like a sunny day without any grief.
Grateful that someone acknowledge him.
He tells me his name is Jin.
Feeling ready, he forgives himself.
Taking what everyone says he ignores it all.
Going out feeling good about everything.
Funny what the day will bring.
Looking at people and trying things out.
He has better things to do than pout.
Thanking him for having him as a friend.
I know he there’s until the very end.
Friendship goes a long way.
All it takes is a smile and saying “Hey”
Helping others makes all the difference
Regardless of what people talk about.
It makes you feel a little better about yourself.
So go for it and don’t look back.
Also don’t forget to take a snack.

What Goes on in my Head 3

One minute I am here, the next I’m not.
I feel like am sturdy and immovable like a rock.
I have people in my life who care.
So why do I feel like my situation is unfair.
I am different.
So what, if I am doesn’t really matter.
No in my mind its all scattered.
My ideas and my dreams.
Can I make that become a reality.
Or will I fall to my own mortality.
Time is unpredictable, so that’s it flows.
Being there for others, That is what matter most.
Somewhere I belong is where I feel like myself .
Not regretting who I am, that’s all and nothing else.
Giving out to those who don’t have nothing.
Your support and smiles count as something.
They mean more than any amount of money.
Its hard as the queen making the honey.
In Congress, decisions are being made.
We have come along way since the world trade.
Never forgetting the brave men and women
Who showed us what it means to be strong.
God Leads me and others to the future ahead.
Keep the faith strong until you reach for the bed.

Rewinding The Tape.

Sometimes I wish I could back in time.
And I did what would I find.
Me as 13 waiting for someone to come save me.
Accused of stealing.
I was scared and belittled.
Feeling cramp like a pack of skittles.
I am different and something else.
There is no need to think only myself.
Glad I found a way out.
Feeling better just like falling through clouds.
Card games and consoles as my friends.
It felt like I was getting near the end.
Meeting people and speaking to others.
I just don’t want to be seen as bother.
Like High School, it was rough.
After 4 yrs, I think that was enough.
Making a Vow to myself to pass school.
After the 2nd semester it was cool.
Good times and early bird to make me happy.
Until I left everyone behind, I felt real crappy.
Now, I have nothing holding me back.
Eating Oranges Slices for my snack,
I seek to ask for wisdom for the times ahead.
It was bad then good will always win.
Listen to LP, my favorite band,
Reaching out, To help me to stand.
I reach for the Honey for it’s sweet.
Reassuring and good to eat.
To the early bird who feels caged.
I open the cage to allowed it to fly away.
See it spreading it wings, to show its grace.
Things shouldn’t rushed. Live life at your own pace.
For the train is coming, so don't be late.
Forget the bad things, It will all go great.
The candle in all of us still burns.
Everyone has had a go so when is it my turn?
Smiling for everyone to see.
The sun shines ever so brightly.

Looking Within Myself

A new thing has happened.
Like the egg shells cracking.
To me that is a fresh start .
Hoping that nothing will drive us apart.
Giving it my all to stand on my two feet.
Nearby the green parakeet goes tweet.
Within myself an enemy lies in wait.
The chaos spreads over the gate.
Thinking, it brings back memories.
Some were bad while others were funny.
To hold myself responsible for what I have done.
I have done everything, except look up and have fun.
Friends to help out with me, never forgetting their faces.
Looking at honey from afar, my heart races.
Alabama, Queens, Nassau, who knows.
All of me needs time to grow.
Realizing that helping myself and others.
If you think about it, we like sisters and brothers.
All these things keep me going.
I’ll be everything except a phony.
Be laid back and carefree or become something.
I want to better myself and protect everything.
I know I can’t do that, but I can try.
Just sitting around, Time is passing you by.
My heart giving off a steady beat.
I try to print but it doesn’t always come out neat.
My mind is like a VCR playing moments in my life.
To be honest, I wish I was more like Cloud Strife.
With my sword and calm attitude, nothing can go wrong.
Reality kicks in telling me I’m listening to wrong song.

Inner Feeling

In my mind, you like the one thought I can’t get rid off.
But it seem lately like I pull and you shove.
Do you care about me?
I really do.
To me you are like the cure to my blues.
To atone for what I done to you in past.
I’m not immortal, I know I won’t last
To Push to your limit is not my goal.
It seem I am just digging my own hole.
I am there for you and you say “ I know”
Time doesn’t stop for anyone, it continues to grow.
I can’t choose what choice to makes.
Having faith in my self ,I do have what it takes.
Pain is always there , it never goes away.
Its like a lioness on the hunt for her prey.
Do I hate you?
No
It takes time to overcome things.
Like you, I also have dreams
But please don’t act like I don’t exist.
Surely it be you who I’ll miss.
Filling up the void is hard work.
Like the woodpecker pecking on the birch.
Everything in life has to have balance.
Its not easy to acquire….

A New Beginning

Out of this shell comes out this boy.
He has been inside for 15 years.
In the real world, he finds no joy.
All that sadness just bring him to tears.
Kicked out by his mother into the cold street.
Hurt by the betrayal, he doesn’t know what to do.
His mood, like the song that skips a beat.
Hoping for a miracle, for it to come soon.
In the pass he had high hopes for girl he really loved.
Until that day, he lost everything he care about.
Trying to see her, he pulls and she shoves.
Day after day , he falls on his knees and shout.
Walking in and out, going to see people that care.
Overcoming his past, he moves with confidence in his mind.
With ideas to move forward in life, he prepares.
Although he been through a lot , he remains to be kind.
He is slow learner but is a good person to be around.
All those things being said to him, they don’t matter.
He doesn’t care much for pounds.
Just like his fears, they all shatter.
He Thinks he alone but he is wrong.
Someone watches over him, even when he is sleeping.
To be with friends and have good times, that where he belongs.
His mind, now clear of all though bad thoughts he has been keeping.
Not looking back, he goes forward with strong faith.
God is protecting him from that old snake’s evil wishes.
Being held back before he goes through the gate.
There waiting for him a feast, He sees the Fish.

The Colored side of things.

The Colored side of things.

The red is for the blood
The blue is for the flood
The green is for the weed
And the brown is for the seed
Black is for the might, while the white is for the sight.
Yellow for the stars.
For you shine as brightly as moonlight on cars.
Pink and red for roses and hearts.
Care bout to you too much to pierce it with a dart.
Purple reminds us our tragic past.
All you see now is people with out cash.
A big mess forms from bad choices.
While we stand still can you hear our voices?
Don’t ignore what’s around you.
Acting like nothing makes you the fool.
All colors come together as one.
Is a rainbow or is it actually someone?
To exist with each other was one man’s dream.
Is it too late to make it become a reality?
She is standing on top with hope in her mind
I walk, thinking “ it’s not impossible to climb.

What Goes On In My Head 2

In Life, Time flows like water.
Water is Unpredictable
So is the next day.
We think Church isn’t important.
How do you live each day?
By thinking nothing bad can happen to me.
No one can be alone and be happy with themselves.
The feeling of no one there to talk to….
Its maddening, Makes my head want to spin.
Living in the basement of the house.
Being in Complete solitude.
The idea of being alone to not hurt others.
Think like that and happiness will not come.
Society run likes clockwork, day in and day out.
Living in fear and the usually paranoid delusions.
Trying to find happiness in people who want absolutely nothing to do with you.
Staring at the phone which doesn’t occasionally ring.
Do they call you or do you call them?
If you call them enough they start to grow tired of you.
Trust is a project you work on with people who have the same common interest as you.
Betrayal and forgiving is a hardship that occurs on a daily basis.
Do you think by dressing or thinking a certain way people will respect you?
I don’t go outside to impress anyone.
Atonement for my past sins.
Like the rurouni who carries his sword to protect the people.
To do something for the people and myself.
To do the right thing.
Have Faith to able to handle sharp words,
And the illusions of the serpent.
He laughs when we give up or give in to our failures.
To learn from our experience will give us hope.
Life is what you make it.(borrowed from tara)

A Person No One Understands.

I am misunderstood,
People think they know but they don't
How can they know if they don't listen.
If they choose to listen, what will their reaction be?
I don't know its' such a mystery.
I am confused, so clear up my confusion.
Its you whom I don't understand.
I want to know what goes on around me.
But we all have facades that we put on.
I want to be real with real dreams.
To be alive, to know how it feels.
Can I survive? All I have is my faith.
Time is precious because it depends on how you use it.
My Time will come and then It will all be done.
People who care thank you.
I wait for the day for someone to believe me.
Who doesn't compare me to everyone because I'm different.
Not because I'm black, but because I am Me!
To be angry with someone over something little
is not worth a person's life taken away.
Forgiving oneself is the first step to a fresh start.
It hurts a lot in beginning but be strong to overcome it.
Its not easy but overtime it will get better.

Finding a Job

Today is a new day so why am I sad.
To find something that I once had.
Finding that which is lost in this world.
It is impossible? Maybe, my mind is in a swirl.
Mix of fears, worries and doubts.
Its feels as I am falling through clouds.
Only been here for short while.
What make feels better is her smile.
A job comes first and then some space.
One step at time though I like to have some cheesecake.
My mind continues to learn for I am still here.
Before I know it, I’ve been here for 21 years.
Even when I’m 21, I will not have change.
When the days pass, things will still feel the same.
My friends are all spread out, what will I do now.
I know an opportunity will come but , when and how?
Can’t sit around until I my time expires.
I will feel relieved when the manager says you’re hired.
Now I feel better get that off my chest.
If I do get hired I will do my best.
I want to see her smiling face once more.
Just looking her, my eyes won’t get sore.
In this I have to be patient and not be worried.
If I don't, I'll just end up I being hungry.

Ghost no longer Dead. Yoshaa!

Yes, I am here because I have things to say.
I am here because there’s more to life than play.
Realizing that I can’t have my own way in life.
If I were a character it would Cloud Strife.
I have survived and now I am on the run.
Real life is much more than a little fun.
I only been here for a short time, There’s so much to know.
Taking things too seriously is not the way to go.
Putting Pressure on People makes me like a tyrant.
Trying to solve everyone else problems except my own.
Should I be bitter and be all alone?
Anime, games, reading are things that I Like.
I wish it warmer so I can ride my bike.
Good times such as those are good to enjoy.
So much older I've become, I am no longer a boy.
I’ve had hell around me and the Devil in My Face.
Don’t give in to them, I like to go at my own pace.
Changes have happened all around us.
A lot has change since sitting in the back of the bus.
People have problems and so do I.
Not being myself would be a total lie.
I have people in my life that I spend time with.
To me I consider that to be the best gift.
To Argue with people it not my goal.
Thankfully, I have climbed out of the hole.
Boku wa Jin Desu,= I am Jin.
With nothing holding me back, I feel like I can win.
To be with someone is something I look forward to .
But now Let me take care of on what I need to do.
20 yrs I lived and seen a lot of things.
Tomorrow is a new day I wonder what it will bring.

Hidden Fear

Being Alone is such a painful thing.
Being Left at the altar when the bells ring.
What did I do to deserve this from you.
You of all people should understand what I am going through.
Do you have someone that cares about you more than I.
Make sure or else this could one big lie.
Are you there when I have little time left.
No, You are just like all the rest.
Caring is one thing and Trust is another.
I really don’t know about the others.
My friends, family and everyone who actually cares about me.
I thank you all, but only time will tell, we’ll see.
In the room in the corner, I hide in the crowd.
All those dirty looks, Nobody is really proud.
Am I in your way, Should I really stay here.
No, it will only cause confusion and fear.
Fear is something that people that don’t understand.
In the end I will have to get up and stand..
I want to do good in the world, that is what I wish.
If not that, may I please have some fish.
On the plains I walk alone with pain.
Reality itself is not a game.
I walk searching for my purpose in this life.
Will I find it?
Is this my destiny to keep searching.
Or am I take things too literally.
On the road with a strong will and strong faith.
My life is just beginning , I know things will be great.
Whether it’s in the city or in the country.
When I think about it now, some of it is pretty funny.
That skinny boy is now something more.
The Future is what I’m aiming for.

Ghost Love

Looking for someone to talk to.
Turning around I see you.
Talking about on how we spent the day.
Thinking on what to say next.
Oh snap, without thinking I start to confess.
My body is one thing, my mind another .
Some how you are different from the others.
Your eyes look at mine while I look at yours.
This feels better than feeling poor.
It so exciting, I feel so much more.
You are what I care bout the most.
When I am with you , I don’t feel like a ghost
Shining more than any star in the sky.
The dragon above soaring high passing you by.
With you in its arms, He’ll Protect you.
He is a Guardian, unlike the others he isn’t so cruel.
Its hard for him to say how he feels but he knows its there.
He knows if he had any orange slices he would gladly share.
Your face shows you and a little bit more.
Looking at you, my eyes never get sore.
If I hold your hand, so warm and nice.
It's like my heart, it's melting like ice.

The Headphones and the Ghost

Getting up in the middle of the day.
Pulling out my mp3, wondering what song to play.
My headphones over my head,, there just listening
Everything that flows in and out becomes clear.
Its makes me feels like I can do anything.
All the bad shit around me just disappears.
While I listen, I think of me.
Thinking of accepting destiny.
Making the right choices and not looking back
Lost in thought my headphones pop out of the jack.
To not give up and to keep on moving.
With my head clear, I feel like I’m cruisin.
R&B, Hip-Hop Gospel, and Rock.
The Last one you wont find on this block.
So what I listen to it, I won’t change.
You and me are no different we are the same.
I keep my cool and my headphones on my head.
the Old man on the street who is eating a crumb of bread.
I feel sorry for him and so many others.
Like children who are alone without mothers.
I wish I could do something or there something that I can say.
For now, in these bad times, all we can do is let the music play

A Ghost Dreams of Japan

Japan, the land of the rising sun.
Being there in Tokyo is really fun.
To be able to see Mt. Fujiyama is amazing.
Being in one of the many arcades drives me crazy.
Along the way to see the old country.
The hundred of battles that have been fought here.
Make me feel like wearing some samurai gear.
To be a warrior with my sword in my hand.
To the moment where I will make I final stand.
Drinking sake and looking for sweet rides.
In my dream, I was a dragon soaring high.
While I am there, I see people reading jump.
I notice that city is clean and not a dump.
I would like to go there one day.
But for now, That’s is all I have to say.

A Lonely Ghost on an Island.

I am surrounded by water, there no place I can go.
No one around to talk to and no time to moan.
Stranded without cause, How did I get here?
All Alone, I might as well be ran over and smeared.
Walking along the Beach, the wind so breezy
I find that surviving on this island will not be easy.
Thinking about fish as time passes by.
Feeling sick, My stomach goes for a ride.
Looking at my reflection in the clear water.
Its as hideous as my attitude towards others.
Can someone as bad as me be given another chance.
It a long shot, it as impossible as a trip to France.
On this Island, I have gone through hell.
I pray to God to relieve me of this awful spell.
I know it will be some time to recover from this.
To give up is not an option, I will recover the thing I dearly miss.

A Lil bit bout me :)

Alabama, is where I was raised for a short time in my life. In coffee county, there is a small town known as New Brockton. Its not much but hey it’s peaceful there. The Next town over is Enterprise. Its not really more like a city with hotels, car dealers, and stores. They even have a super Wal-Mart there in Enterprise.
Super Wal-Marts are like the normal ones except they carry a whole lot more stuff and if you’re lucky a Mickey’D too. Yea bama has all that good stuff. Not too many people around my age though, man that sucks. There is always plenty of food, you can count on it. I can’t name one time that I haven’t gone hungry. A lot of memories down here and yet I feel this place is irreplaceable to me. Lots of open space to walk and think about the past, present, and future.

Relationships

Relationships are special in a way that differ from everyday life. The man loves a woman and life goes on from there. What the man wishes for is that this love can last for forever. “ My vegetable love should grow, vaster than empires and more slow.” For a relationship, it takes a lot to make it work. Afterward, a man and woman get closer to the point they want to be in each other lives. There’s no need to rush in a relationship because you get to enjoy spending a lot of time with each other. Taking one step at time and you’ll soon realize what happiness you have in front of you. “For, lady, you deserve this state, Nor would I love at lower rate.” Loving someone isn’t something you can measure or take record of. Being able to love someone means that it takes a lot of heart. In a relationship you can’t really love someone only a half, it’s either all or none. Taking advantage of someone who cares a lot is cheap. “But at my back I always hear time’s winged chariot hurrying near.” Time with someone is important because we don’t know what will happen next. Enjoy those memories because they are what keep you going on. In the end, the time you will have to leave them behind. So while you are still here, take one step at a time and enjoy life. “Let us roll all our strength and all our sweetness up into one ball.” Happiness is important and in a stable relationship you may find it. People are very fortunate to be with someone they really love. If you have positive thinking then your relationship will be positive.

The Country is a Nice Place.

I wake up in a large grassy field and smile.
Taking the long route that goes on for miles.
Over my head the sun shines over the lake.
Man, Do I wish has some Chocolate cake.
I keep on going, Walking tall.
It’s good to keep going or else you’ll fall.
Food so good that it keeps you coming back.
You’ll never go hungry, so here’s a snack.
A place full of people with strange accents.
Just being happy with others makes sense.
Boom, here comes the storm so be ready.
Protect everyone, make sure things go steady.
Bama is where everything started for me.
Remembering all those good times in the Country.

Internal Battle

The Rain falls soundly from the sky.
I look outside wondering why?
The day has just begun.
When everything just falls apart, I don’t want to run.
I will face it right here and now.
Even though I might not be sure how.
This my battle and the enemy is here.
Even though I stand tall, he is near .
He stares at me telling me I don’t matter.
The onslaught will continue until I completely shatter.
Don’t Give in or else I will be taken.
Just him in Control, gets others shaken.
At Last some hope, a light appears before me.
I don’t have a clue, but who is she.
Who’s bathe in white garments and has great wings
I been through so much, is she here to save me?
Rays of lights pierce through the clouds.
I wake up but I don’t see anyone around.
Was it all a dream I will never know.
Just looking at her made me melt like snow.
In these days I look back at all those times with friends.
I know times are bad but this can’t be the end.
I look outside and it is Shining brightly.
It is you I see looking so nicely.
Can’t Stop Smiling, feeling all good
I want to help others, This feeling tells me that I should.
Struggling to find happiness it not easy thing.
Being in my thoughts makes me want to sing.
With you I know that things will be fine.
I know one thing, the sun isn’t the only one to shine.

Something the Ghost Dragged in

Hoping for a wish that comes true.

Hoping because I'm thinking of you.

While I was down and out, I was then

Stiff and still like Big Ben.

Even now, living in Square One,

Forgive me for I am cursed.

I can only imagine the worse.

Things will get better i hope.

If not, I'm better of being with the pope.

No, no its a scary thought

You are priceless, you can't be bought.

Meaning so much to me you do.

I rather you live on, better off than me.

Not sure what will happen, its all a mystery.

Being there for me was cool.

I feelings say a lot and Thank You.

:) By Jin- During English Class

Ghost as a Gamer

I'm a gamer and i don't feel ashamed.
I grow older but yet i stay the same.
People look at me like the plague.
I don't care because i am what God made.
Why should I Change, to be accepted by a crew.
I am accepted but not to likes of you.
The person who i am best a being is me.
Unlike you i don't follow a TV.
Call me whatever it doesnt matter.
Just like the leaves you all scatter.
I go to school to make something happen.
Not to see you just snappin.
The club I like where everyone is accepted.
Because of past mistakes, people often regret it.
It's important to understand people and their lives.
If something is important, pursue it don't let it pass by.
Feeling Down hurts but don't dwell in it.
Read the instructions can help out a bit.
Life is like a game.
Don't give up because you can change.
There are good things in this world.
Looking for it can make your mind swirl.
Its there waiting for you, don fret.
Everyone has had their turn but hey you're next.

Day of the Ghost

Bored as the days goes by.
Feeling nothing, It comes a no surprise.
Being a Ghost so hollow and empty.
I long for that everlasting feeling.
The feeling of being accepted by society.
Its not about what you have or the way you look.
These days it wouldn’t hurt to pick up a book.
You and me are no different, we are the same.
People have to realize that this is no game.
Some are born and others leave this world.
A new life is precious just as finding a pearl.
Realizing that I am alive, that’s a good thing.
Just being around other just makes me go "zing".
Living your life to fullest, accepting destiny for what it is.
Being there for others, that is my fondest wish.
I am me, no more no less
For now let me just focus on getting out of this mess.

Redemption of Ghost

In morning I wake from a good sleep.
Thinking what can today bring me.
Going to school to better myself.
Wondering what could be next.
Just getting by to past the test.
Looking up in the clouds, high above
I know if try hard. That alone should be enough
Hope is something that people need.
If you try too hard, you’ll end up turning green.
Giving up the things you love most
In this life I have the role of the ghost.
Alone and restless and not sure about life.
No that alone isn’t enough to make things right.
Will I continue to live in a Dream?
No, I will live my life the way is meant to be.
I am Ghost, wandering and hoping for good.
To be someone in myself I know I could .
revealing myself , I take off my mask.
To redeem myself will be my next task.

What goes on in my Head

If I go is to a place that no one Knows.
Looking at you makes the flowers grow.
Up I look into the sky.
Just Thinking about stuff as time goes bye.
College is tough and sometimes a bit more.
Just Hang in there and you'll never be sore.
Of all the thoughts swirling in your head.
You get annoyed, your face gets all red.
Wondering what to do next is sometimes hard.
Just seeing a friend who about to part.
Everyone thinks they're cool just because there in school.
What a messed up way to think, Man that so cruel.
Boys and Girl together just how it should be.
Those good people always seem so happy.
Hey everyone has problems both you and I.
For now lets just enjoy the good times.

A Ghost Memoir

I Like to play games.
To other people that may seem kinda lame.
But their opinion really doesn't matter.
When I no longer think about them, they all shatter.
I go inside my realm, a safe zone for me.
In that zone. I am just so lonely.
It sucks that I can t function in society.
Those feelings come from the anxiety.
I look for the hope I pray for everyday.
Oh The gamer I am, I feel so far away.
Friends are there with until you go home.
Even then in my realm i roam.
I am only good at being one thing.
Being me and not a wannabe.
I put others before my self- a good deed.
I feel like i could be that hero that people need.
No more negative
Focus on the Positive
For the future, need to keep my head up.
Or else i might end up ready to erupt.
I pray for the good things and people that I meet.
God is watching over me and now i want something to eat.
Enjoy life and see that things will turn out good.
I want to be there for you and I promise I would.

The Moon

Everytime i look at the Moon.
It will always remind me of you.
My Mind Is the void that seems endless.
Shining Bright, you bring me happiness.
At night, I walk all alone. When I with you
I feel like i'm already Home.
Tired as the day goes by i wait.
Hoping to find my one true mate.
Time flies when looking for someone to love.
But the only thing you can do now is shrug.
Feeling Depressed really gets me down.
Looking at your face so nice and round.
Your eyes show your beauty,
But your mind is such a mystery.
On the ground I look around for you.
In reality I end up just looking at the moon.