Hidden Fear

Being Alone is such a painful thing.
Being Left at the altar when the bells ring.
What did I do to deserve this from you.
You of all people should understand what I am going through.
Do you have someone that cares about you more than I.
Make sure or else this could one big lie.
Are you there when I have little time left.
No, You are just like all the rest.
Caring is one thing and Trust is another.
I really don’t know about the others.
My friends, family and everyone who actually cares about me.
I thank you all, but only time will tell, we’ll see.
In the room in the corner, I hide in the crowd.
All those dirty looks, Nobody is really proud.
Am I in your way, Should I really stay here.
No, it will only cause confusion and fear.
Fear is something that people that don’t understand.
In the end I will have to get up and stand..
I want to do good in the world, that is what I wish.
If not that, may I please have some fish.
On the plains I walk alone with pain.
Reality itself is not a game.
I walk searching for my purpose in this life.
Will I find it?
Is this my destiny to keep searching.
Or am I take things too literally.
On the road with a strong will and strong faith.
My life is just beginning , I know things will be great.
Whether it’s in the city or in the country.
When I think about it now, some of it is pretty funny.
That skinny boy is now something more.
The Future is what I’m aiming for.