The Colored side of things.

The Colored side of things.

The red is for the blood
The blue is for the flood
The green is for the weed
And the brown is for the seed
Black is for the might, while the white is for the sight.
Yellow for the stars.
For you shine as brightly as moonlight on cars.
Pink and red for roses and hearts.
Care bout to you too much to pierce it with a dart.
Purple reminds us our tragic past.
All you see now is people with out cash.
A big mess forms from bad choices.
While we stand still can you hear our voices?
Don’t ignore what’s around you.
Acting like nothing makes you the fool.
All colors come together as one.
Is a rainbow or is it actually someone?
To exist with each other was one man’s dream.
Is it too late to make it become a reality?
She is standing on top with hope in her mind
I walk, thinking “ it’s not impossible to climb.

What Goes On In My Head 2

In Life, Time flows like water.
Water is Unpredictable
So is the next day.
We think Church isn’t important.
How do you live each day?
By thinking nothing bad can happen to me.
No one can be alone and be happy with themselves.
The feeling of no one there to talk to….
Its maddening, Makes my head want to spin.
Living in the basement of the house.
Being in Complete solitude.
The idea of being alone to not hurt others.
Think like that and happiness will not come.
Society run likes clockwork, day in and day out.
Living in fear and the usually paranoid delusions.
Trying to find happiness in people who want absolutely nothing to do with you.
Staring at the phone which doesn’t occasionally ring.
Do they call you or do you call them?
If you call them enough they start to grow tired of you.
Trust is a project you work on with people who have the same common interest as you.
Betrayal and forgiving is a hardship that occurs on a daily basis.
Do you think by dressing or thinking a certain way people will respect you?
I don’t go outside to impress anyone.
Atonement for my past sins.
Like the rurouni who carries his sword to protect the people.
To do something for the people and myself.
To do the right thing.
Have Faith to able to handle sharp words,
And the illusions of the serpent.
He laughs when we give up or give in to our failures.
To learn from our experience will give us hope.
Life is what you make it.(borrowed from tara)

A Person No One Understands.

I am misunderstood,
People think they know but they don't
How can they know if they don't listen.
If they choose to listen, what will their reaction be?
I don't know its' such a mystery.
I am confused, so clear up my confusion.
Its you whom I don't understand.
I want to know what goes on around me.
But we all have facades that we put on.
I want to be real with real dreams.
To be alive, to know how it feels.
Can I survive? All I have is my faith.
Time is precious because it depends on how you use it.
My Time will come and then It will all be done.
People who care thank you.
I wait for the day for someone to believe me.
Who doesn't compare me to everyone because I'm different.
Not because I'm black, but because I am Me!
To be angry with someone over something little
is not worth a person's life taken away.
Forgiving oneself is the first step to a fresh start.
It hurts a lot in beginning but be strong to overcome it.
Its not easy but overtime it will get better.

Finding a Job

Today is a new day so why am I sad.
To find something that I once had.
Finding that which is lost in this world.
It is impossible? Maybe, my mind is in a swirl.
Mix of fears, worries and doubts.
Its feels as I am falling through clouds.
Only been here for short while.
What make feels better is her smile.
A job comes first and then some space.
One step at time though I like to have some cheesecake.
My mind continues to learn for I am still here.
Before I know it, I’ve been here for 21 years.
Even when I’m 21, I will not have change.
When the days pass, things will still feel the same.
My friends are all spread out, what will I do now.
I know an opportunity will come but , when and how?
Can’t sit around until I my time expires.
I will feel relieved when the manager says you’re hired.
Now I feel better get that off my chest.
If I do get hired I will do my best.
I want to see her smiling face once more.
Just looking her, my eyes won’t get sore.
In this I have to be patient and not be worried.
If I don't, I'll just end up I being hungry.

Ghost no longer Dead. Yoshaa!

Yes, I am here because I have things to say.
I am here because there’s more to life than play.
Realizing that I can’t have my own way in life.
If I were a character it would Cloud Strife.
I have survived and now I am on the run.
Real life is much more than a little fun.
I only been here for a short time, There’s so much to know.
Taking things too seriously is not the way to go.
Putting Pressure on People makes me like a tyrant.
Trying to solve everyone else problems except my own.
Should I be bitter and be all alone?
Anime, games, reading are things that I Like.
I wish it warmer so I can ride my bike.
Good times such as those are good to enjoy.
So much older I've become, I am no longer a boy.
I’ve had hell around me and the Devil in My Face.
Don’t give in to them, I like to go at my own pace.
Changes have happened all around us.
A lot has change since sitting in the back of the bus.
People have problems and so do I.
Not being myself would be a total lie.
I have people in my life that I spend time with.
To me I consider that to be the best gift.
To Argue with people it not my goal.
Thankfully, I have climbed out of the hole.
Boku wa Jin Desu,= I am Jin.
With nothing holding me back, I feel like I can win.
To be with someone is something I look forward to .
But now Let me take care of on what I need to do.
20 yrs I lived and seen a lot of things.
Tomorrow is a new day I wonder what it will bring.

Hidden Fear

Being Alone is such a painful thing.
Being Left at the altar when the bells ring.
What did I do to deserve this from you.
You of all people should understand what I am going through.
Do you have someone that cares about you more than I.
Make sure or else this could one big lie.
Are you there when I have little time left.
No, You are just like all the rest.
Caring is one thing and Trust is another.
I really don’t know about the others.
My friends, family and everyone who actually cares about me.
I thank you all, but only time will tell, we’ll see.
In the room in the corner, I hide in the crowd.
All those dirty looks, Nobody is really proud.
Am I in your way, Should I really stay here.
No, it will only cause confusion and fear.
Fear is something that people that don’t understand.
In the end I will have to get up and stand..
I want to do good in the world, that is what I wish.
If not that, may I please have some fish.
On the plains I walk alone with pain.
Reality itself is not a game.
I walk searching for my purpose in this life.
Will I find it?
Is this my destiny to keep searching.
Or am I take things too literally.
On the road with a strong will and strong faith.
My life is just beginning , I know things will be great.
Whether it’s in the city or in the country.
When I think about it now, some of it is pretty funny.
That skinny boy is now something more.
The Future is what I’m aiming for.

Ghost Love

Looking for someone to talk to.
Turning around I see you.
Talking about on how we spent the day.
Thinking on what to say next.
Oh snap, without thinking I start to confess.
My body is one thing, my mind another .
Some how you are different from the others.
Your eyes look at mine while I look at yours.
This feels better than feeling poor.
It so exciting, I feel so much more.
You are what I care bout the most.
When I am with you , I don’t feel like a ghost
Shining more than any star in the sky.
The dragon above soaring high passing you by.
With you in its arms, He’ll Protect you.
He is a Guardian, unlike the others he isn’t so cruel.
Its hard for him to say how he feels but he knows its there.
He knows if he had any orange slices he would gladly share.
Your face shows you and a little bit more.
Looking at you, my eyes never get sore.
If I hold your hand, so warm and nice.
It's like my heart, it's melting like ice.

The Headphones and the Ghost

Getting up in the middle of the day.
Pulling out my mp3, wondering what song to play.
My headphones over my head,, there just listening
Everything that flows in and out becomes clear.
Its makes me feels like I can do anything.
All the bad shit around me just disappears.
While I listen, I think of me.
Thinking of accepting destiny.
Making the right choices and not looking back
Lost in thought my headphones pop out of the jack.
To not give up and to keep on moving.
With my head clear, I feel like I’m cruisin.
R&B, Hip-Hop Gospel, and Rock.
The Last one you wont find on this block.
So what I listen to it, I won’t change.
You and me are no different we are the same.
I keep my cool and my headphones on my head.
the Old man on the street who is eating a crumb of bread.
I feel sorry for him and so many others.
Like children who are alone without mothers.
I wish I could do something or there something that I can say.
For now, in these bad times, all we can do is let the music play

A Ghost Dreams of Japan

Japan, the land of the rising sun.
Being there in Tokyo is really fun.
To be able to see Mt. Fujiyama is amazing.
Being in one of the many arcades drives me crazy.
Along the way to see the old country.
The hundred of battles that have been fought here.
Make me feel like wearing some samurai gear.
To be a warrior with my sword in my hand.
To the moment where I will make I final stand.
Drinking sake and looking for sweet rides.
In my dream, I was a dragon soaring high.
While I am there, I see people reading jump.
I notice that city is clean and not a dump.
I would like to go there one day.
But for now, That’s is all I have to say.

A Lonely Ghost on an Island.

I am surrounded by water, there no place I can go.
No one around to talk to and no time to moan.
Stranded without cause, How did I get here?
All Alone, I might as well be ran over and smeared.
Walking along the Beach, the wind so breezy
I find that surviving on this island will not be easy.
Thinking about fish as time passes by.
Feeling sick, My stomach goes for a ride.
Looking at my reflection in the clear water.
Its as hideous as my attitude towards others.
Can someone as bad as me be given another chance.
It a long shot, it as impossible as a trip to France.
On this Island, I have gone through hell.
I pray to God to relieve me of this awful spell.
I know it will be some time to recover from this.
To give up is not an option, I will recover the thing I dearly miss.

A Lil bit bout me :)

Alabama, is where I was raised for a short time in my life. In coffee county, there is a small town known as New Brockton. Its not much but hey it’s peaceful there. The Next town over is Enterprise. Its not really more like a city with hotels, car dealers, and stores. They even have a super Wal-Mart there in Enterprise.
Super Wal-Marts are like the normal ones except they carry a whole lot more stuff and if you’re lucky a Mickey’D too. Yea bama has all that good stuff. Not too many people around my age though, man that sucks. There is always plenty of food, you can count on it. I can’t name one time that I haven’t gone hungry. A lot of memories down here and yet I feel this place is irreplaceable to me. Lots of open space to walk and think about the past, present, and future.

Relationships

Relationships are special in a way that differ from everyday life. The man loves a woman and life goes on from there. What the man wishes for is that this love can last for forever. “ My vegetable love should grow, vaster than empires and more slow.” For a relationship, it takes a lot to make it work. Afterward, a man and woman get closer to the point they want to be in each other lives. There’s no need to rush in a relationship because you get to enjoy spending a lot of time with each other. Taking one step at time and you’ll soon realize what happiness you have in front of you. “For, lady, you deserve this state, Nor would I love at lower rate.” Loving someone isn’t something you can measure or take record of. Being able to love someone means that it takes a lot of heart. In a relationship you can’t really love someone only a half, it’s either all or none. Taking advantage of someone who cares a lot is cheap. “But at my back I always hear time’s winged chariot hurrying near.” Time with someone is important because we don’t know what will happen next. Enjoy those memories because they are what keep you going on. In the end, the time you will have to leave them behind. So while you are still here, take one step at a time and enjoy life. “Let us roll all our strength and all our sweetness up into one ball.” Happiness is important and in a stable relationship you may find it. People are very fortunate to be with someone they really love. If you have positive thinking then your relationship will be positive.

The Country is a Nice Place.

I wake up in a large grassy field and smile.
Taking the long route that goes on for miles.
Over my head the sun shines over the lake.
Man, Do I wish has some Chocolate cake.
I keep on going, Walking tall.
It’s good to keep going or else you’ll fall.
Food so good that it keeps you coming back.
You’ll never go hungry, so here’s a snack.
A place full of people with strange accents.
Just being happy with others makes sense.
Boom, here comes the storm so be ready.
Protect everyone, make sure things go steady.
Bama is where everything started for me.
Remembering all those good times in the Country.