Inner Feeling

In my mind, you like the one thought I can’t get rid off.
But it seem lately like I pull and you shove.
Do you care about me?
I really do.
To me you are like the cure to my blues.
To atone for what I done to you in past.
I’m not immortal, I know I won’t last
To Push to your limit is not my goal.
It seem I am just digging my own hole.
I am there for you and you say “ I know”
Time doesn’t stop for anyone, it continues to grow.
I can’t choose what choice to makes.
Having faith in my self ,I do have what it takes.
Pain is always there , it never goes away.
Its like a lioness on the hunt for her prey.
Do I hate you?
No
It takes time to overcome things.
Like you, I also have dreams
But please don’t act like I don’t exist.
Surely it be you who I’ll miss.
Filling up the void is hard work.
Like the woodpecker pecking on the birch.
Everything in life has to have balance.
Its not easy to acquire….