In the morning I wake up to a new day.
My mouth feels like I just ate some hay.
What is going on with me,
Am I going crazy.
Is everyone my enemy?
Can I trust myself?
No
It is just me and no one else.
What else is there for me here.
Everyday people look at me weird.
That same look that often looms.
In my mind or in my room.
The devil laughs in my face.
Treating me like a bunch of waste.
Will I be missed if I left this world.
If so, please untangle this swirl.
I want to say I sorry to this friend
Not being myself made this friendship end.
Such evil in me exist.
Pray for me if you insist.
I don’t expect no one to come to help.
Hiding in the corner feeling like a lost whelp.
Smiling is something that is hard for me to do.
I want to make you see that I do care about you.
Let me just say my peace,
Before you know it, I am labeled : DECEASED.
In my mind you haven’t left
But this more than just a bet.
My friends is more important than playing games.
That you help me before makes you more than just the same.
No more will I burden you with my problems or personalities.
Hurting you makes me lose my sense of mortality.
I am human, and yet too long I didn’t see.
Blinded by what seemed to be and wasn’t.
You might hate and despise.
The one thing I would not do to you is lie.
If I have fallen that low.
The line has been drawn, I dare not go.
Forgiveness is something I ask for, not expect.
Because of my problem and its effects.
After this I don’t know what’s next.
I hope you will see that hurting you
Is something that I will regret.
If you hate me I understand
What else can I do, I am just a man.
I was once a boy who didn't think.
But time after time the load began to stink.
Tired of carrying it wherever I may walk.
Like crabs in those arctic waters, I am tired of getting caught.
My past is one thing but it should not affect who I care about.
Choose to live on or be in a corner and pout.
I worry for the safety of others because I care.
It not just your world, It's mine too so why can't we share?
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